OMG okay so I finally bought the domain name well technically it's neocities and I didn't buy anything but WHO CARES!! I'm officially a webmaster now!!
GG showed me how to set up the CSS grid because mine was totally broken lol. She's so good at this stuff, it's crazy. One day I'm gonna make a site way cooler than hers (jk jk love u GG!!).
Goal for tomorrow: Figure out how to make text sparkle.
Spent like 6 hours tweaking the pixel art for the nav bar. My eyes hurt x_x
Mom came in and asked if I did my summer reading. I told her "I'm reading documentation, that counts!"
She didn't laugh. Whatever. She doesn't get it. The internet is way more important than The Great Gatsby or whatever.
Also I found this super cute stamp collection site, gonna link it in my shrine section!!!
School starts in like two weeks and I actually feel kinda nauseous thinking about it??? Ugh.
I just wanna stay in my room and code forever. Is that a valid career path? "Professional Room Dweller"?
GG says I should join the computer club this year but... idk. People there are kinda... intense. I like coding alone in the dark with my blinky lights hehe.
First day back. It was exactly as loud and annoying as I remembered.
I tried to show someone my website on my phone during lunch and she just squinted and was like "Why does it look old? Is it broken?"
IT'S AESTHETIC SARAH!!! YOU WOULDN'T GET IT!!!!!!!!
I wish my IRL friends were as cool as my net friends. :(
Forgot to do the math homework again. Mr. Henderson yelled at me in front of everyone. It wasn't even yelling really but he used that *tone* you know????
"Q.T., if you applied half the effort to algebra that you do to doodling..."
I wasn't doodling I was planning my layout logic!!!
Whatever. I'll just copy it from someone tomorrow morning.
GG posted a new update to her site today. She made this whole JS game from scratch. It's so cool.
I looked at her source code and I honestly don't understand half of it. I feel so dumb sometimes.
I'm just pasting snippets from chatgpt and hoping they work. I'm a fraud lol.
I messaged her saying "GREAT JOB!!" but I kinda felt like....... jealous? Is that mean? I'm a bad friend.
Stayed home today. Told mom I had a stomach ache. I mean I kinda do? It hurts when I think about walking into the cafeteria.
Spent the whole day online. It's so much quieter here..
I should fix the broken links in the about section vwv
I haven't updated the main page in a week.
I opened the editor and just stared at the cursor blinking.
Blink. Blink. Blink.
It felt like it was judging me lol.
I closed it and watched YouTube for 6 hours instead. I'm so productive!! xD
Mom took my laptop cord away last night because I was up at 3am.
Jokes on her I found the spare one in the drawer :3.
I can't sleep anyway lulz my brain is too loud. It's only quiet when I'm scrolling.
I'll just keep scrolling.
Someone wrote "Freak" on my locker.
Original. Creative. 10/10 for effort tbh.
I didn't even wipe it off. Who cares.
I wonder if GG ever got bullied? She seems too cool for that. She probably fit right in.
I wish I was her.
Happy halloween I guess.
Didn't go out.
I looked at my code today and it looks like gibberish. Did I write this?
"function smile() { return false; }"
Haha I'm so edgy wow. Cringe.
I should delete this whole site. It's trash.
I'm fine!!!
Really I'm fine. I just need to catch up on sleep.
School is fine. Mom is fine.
I'm gonna lock in now!! No more skipping, no more being a bum!!
So much for that last entry lol
It's getting colder. My room freezes at night.
I like it though. It makes me feel numb.
I haven't spoken to anyone in 3 days. Except online.
They don't know me though. They just know the avatar.
The avatar is happy. She has pink hair and cat ears. She's cute, cheerful. She's doing great.
The noise in my head stopped today. I think I feel like I just got a moment of clarity
It's weirdly quiet.
I looked outside and the sky was this REALLY pale grey.
I made a decision.
I wrote a letter for Mom. It's on my desk.
I tried to explain but words are hard yknow.
Life doesn't follow rules anyway.
I think I'm happier than before.
Hey GG.
If you're reading this, you probably found the hidden link in the footer. I knew you checked source code anyway u nerd lol.
Thanks for being my friend. Even if it was just discord or whatever. You were the only one who actually thought my stuff was cool.
You can delete this page now!!! Like seriously, wipe it. Make room for that game you were talking about. It sounded awesome.
Don't let my messy code clutter up your website.
You're gonna be a great developer, GG.
Let me know how cool it was when you see me.
- QT